Shifting Sand

My faith is like shifting sand
Changed by every wave

My faith feels like that mostly. And most of the time I beat myself up everytime I find myself drifting away. Its an awful feeling and most times I just end up in a hole and ever further away from God. Especially when I'm in a procrastinatory slump. Like I was.

And then I try to pick myself out of it by my own strength, and it just becomes futile. All the self help, self motivatory books in the world would not be of any use.

Then I heard this song. Well I listened. I've heard it alot, but for once I listened to the lyrics, and it made so much sense. And here was someone else admitting to the same problem I had! I wasn't the only one... Its not just me! I'm not the only person in the whole wide world that finds it so hard, that feels so absolutely inadequate and unable to carry on the christian walk.

And here was the catcher in the second part of the chorus
My faith is like shifting sand
So I stand on grace

There it was. We all feel like faith on shifting sand, unstable, inadequate, never quite there. But thats why Jesus came, thats why the only thing we can stand on His firm foundation, to stand on His grace.

So I'm not the only rotten pea in the pot.

* Shifting Sand by Caedmon's Call - Chronicles Album